Written at: 2:04 p.m. on October 26, 2004
its me again. the one who disappoints. the one who u bless abundantly and who squanders it all away. the one who is inclined to fail. the one who temption follows. this time, i am not going to ask you for strength or courage, not going to ask for wisdom or patience. Father, just bring me closer to u. i feel like u have already began the process, as you have brought me to my knees. my future is cloudy and my dreams deferred. i dont want to quit but i need you. this road is too rough for me to traverse alone.