Written at: 3:55 p.m. on October 13, 2004
would it fair of me if i didnt truly love u but pretended i did? He did that to me and now i feel i am doing that to you. All of you. One, two, and three. I want to know if it hurts though. That doesnt mean i am going to stop, but, i just want to know. When i flirt, and giggle, and pretend to blush, does it make u feel like more of a man? Does it? I think the scars are starting to heal or at least starting to be replaced by horns, or thorns, or something else that might hurt. I guess that makes me a survivor.