"Like a castle"...that was the way you described sexual contact to me. "It goes level by level." It was stupid but it made so much sense. That was when we had our first kiss. Your lips on my shaking lips. Instructing at first, then it became natural. Me on you. You were my prince charming.
And i remember the first time we "tried". I was so scared but you made me feel unpressured. But i still felt the pressure, not from u but from age. 18 is a good age to loose it right? So we stripped down our inhibitions, u still with ur glasses on and me laying shivering on my twin sized bed. "R u ready" u asked. "Yeah, com'on" i replied. Then u entered me. and as much as i wanted to grow up at that moment, my body wanted to remain a little girl. u must have seen the fear on my face because u stopped. with u still in me you asked "do u want me to stop?" I was in such pain and so afraid i didnt answer. I just layed there mouth open and my right eye filled with a tear. and u pulled out of my under-lubricated body and got up. I layed there, not knowing if u would ever talk to me again...or if u were just going to leave immediately. U went to the bathroom, then u came back, and u held me, and hugged me. and thats when i knew i would love u forever.