This could possibly be one of my worst days ever. This really is. I havent written in a minute because thing have just been peachy. Me a KK have really been doing good. We were even using pet names and calling each other baby. We were being really expressive and everything was all good. But he woke me up are six thirty this morning to tell me he wanted to end it all. He said he didnt even want me to be calling him and stuff. This is possibly the mostunplanned series of events I have ever experienced. He said it was because he could not get over the fact that I have a sexual encounter with DY. But my issue with it is that this was at a time when me and him were not even on speaking terms. I did not do it out of malice, but i needed something and DY was there to fulfill that need. I dont regret my actions alone but i do regret it because it was worthless and it is breaking up what i think is a beautiful relationship. I tried text messaging him today but he hasnt replied and i called and he didnt answer. I just like him to much to let it go. I just cant throw it away like this. I am so afraid of what will happen next. I am hoping for the best. The irony is that the same people that told me to keep messing with both of them when i had my struggle of what to do, are now telling me to move on a let him go. I am so confused. I cant sleep or think stragiht. But everything happens for a reason and i just hope that whatever lesson i am supposed to learn from this, i learn it before its too late.
