Aiight well things with me and my homies is better. We had a good honest talk and we have settled our differences and truly affirmed that we are good friends that are able to say exactly what we feel without compirmising who we are or comprimising our friendship. This is a great feeling.
Me and MY have started talking again apparently whatever relationship he got into feel out at the same time i began drawing back from my two fools.
I was thinking about AL today, kinda weird. He still kinda holds a place but i dont want anything with it really. lets just leave it as a lil piece of history.
As for KK i dont know what im doing, i wish i could be some playa or somethin. chill with him and think nothing of it. but its the exact opposite, i wear my heart on my sleeve and and so wrapped up in him. I slept over there the other day and broke all the rules possible and had fun doin it. OK let me stop.
I had a disacussion with DG the other day about the way i feel about myself right now and the internal struggle im having. I was telling him that because I was messing with KK and DY was still pursuing me without me having shothim down that i dont know the difference between me and the girls i call hoes and rollers. For one, they are basically doing the same thing. getting involved with two guys at once, only mine is emotional with DY, no freaky deaky!