Things have been a lil crazy with me and my homies i must admit. Its like, we still are cool but shyt just isnt the same. i see us fallin apart slowly but surely the was things happened with LTA. Its crazy. I mean we havent been arguing or anything but, i can feel the tension and that things are not the same.
I have decided to step back from DY because it hasnt even been a month and he is already bringing the drama. I mean shyt. Whats a dime to do? I can just keep dealin witht hte shyt and letting it escalate into some big fiascal. KK didnt even bring me drama in the first month and i really liked him. It just doesnt seem worth it to me, ya dig?
Further more, me and KK are still not really talkin. I wonder why things get good just to get fucked up again.
Well other than those things, i am feelin pretty good, im straight chillin for the past two or three days. Takin life one day at a time. I saw a woman on oprah whose son, i believe it was was killed. When asked how she is surviving she said "You have to go through the motions of life, and pretty soon it will become reality." Thats exactly what i am doing. Keeping a smile on my face and my head up. Im going through the motions. THere was a timwe where i couldnt edo that because it felt like I was fakin or being untrue to myself. But I need to do this to survive or I will just break down. Im not unhappy right now but i am in a state of contentment which is the worst place to be at my age. Pray for me...