I think i got that gossip shyt straight if anyone wanted an update. I think it may have just been a matter or misunderstanding and false impressions whether intentional or not. I refuse to be concerned. Anyway, i have taken new strides to handling my double dippin bitness. I simply have to drop one. Sounds simple right? Now which one?
KK: We have a bit of history. Not all of it is good buthe is the first guys i let my guard down with. I'm not in love with him but i do love him and i wish him the best. I mean, now that we are supposedly on the friendship tip (mutual decision), things are pretty good. There is no fakin and i like him a lot more as a person. But like i mentioned before. it just complicates things more. The reason i wanted to be friends is because our relationship had evolved into one of just strictly sexual gratification. I didnt like it and it was eating away at my spirit.
Now for da youngin: He just seems so unreal. I am kinda scared that since he seems so chill that he is putting on a front and spreadin shyt behind my back. I mean i like chillin with him. I like him for what i know but i cant say i really like him as more. Im feelin him as a friend but its not that deep. I want things to progress on some level with him but i really can't give myself to him while im still savin a piece for KK. I wish he would just stop pursuing me or i could just shoot him down? why cant i be a bytch??
DAMN WHAT A TANGLED WEB WE WEAVE.